Sunday, 24 March 2013
Chloe's celebration of life
We had a beautiful celebration of life for our beautiful daughter Chloe yesterday. Truly amazing really.
A few things really helped in making this a celebration. We had her cremated separately and then had the ashes blessed and buried. We also left almost four weeks before the day she died and the celebration. Pros and cons to this but overall think it meant we could focus on Chloe's life rather than just her death. We were all just that tiny bit less raw.
Chloe's young friends were amazing: Sarah, Olivia, Rosie, Sophia and big Clo. My earth daughter Hannah too - just wonderful. Absolutely 100s of friends and family gathered showing how many people Chloe had touched by her young life. I am so very proud to be her Mother and felt so supported by all the amazing people there.
Now back to the quiet and the real business of grief, loss and mourning. I expect a huge dip in emotions after the activity of the celebrations. Now the real brutal reality of no Chloe to wake up in the morning, no Chloe to take tablets to, no Chloe to snuggle up in bed with. Just no Chloe.
So on with the journey of how to live without my daughter, my best friend, my inspiration.
I would love anybody else who has faced bereavement in anyway to post here - a discussion on grief would be good. Parents like me feel hugely isolated in our grief - its seems way beyond the normal boundaries of life. Grief at this level is a whole new world to me and I have seen other parents absolutely crippled by this level of grief. How does one start to live with the sadness, how to you find hope in the pit of despair? Any comments gratefully received.
Also please http://www.thisiscroydontoday.co.uk/health and really appreciate you commenting on the story and you sharing your memories of Chloe. As you will see Chloe's treatment options were limited and we faced many obstacles to getting her the right treatment at the right time. Most especially she was denied a promising new treatment as she was 4 months short of her 18th birthday. A campaign is being launched to try and ensure that other young people don't have to face the same obstacles that our family did with our beloved Chloe. Please support us with this. xxxx